Yet, when it comes to your faith...your relationship with God, there are many aspects that seem like no brainers and yet the decisions that are made seem to go in direct contradiction to what is expected of a follower of Jesus. A decision was made at one time to accept Jesus as Lord and Savior. Yet now, down the road a bit...there is still this lingering desire to do what I want to do and to go where I want to go.
One of the worst train disasters in history occurred in the El Toro Tunnel in Leon, Spain, on January 3, 1944. Over five hundred people died. The train was one of those long passenger trains with an engine on both ends. On this particular day, when the train went into the El Toro Tunnel, the engine on the front stalled. When the front engine stopped, the engineer on the back engine started up his engine to back the train out of the tunnel. At that same time, however, the front engineer managed to get the front engine started again and attempted to continue the journey forward. Neither engineer had any way of communicating with each other. Both engineers thought they simply needed more power. They continued to pull in both directions for several minutes. Hundreds of passengers on the train in the tunnel died of carbon monoxide poisoning because the train could not make up its mind which way to go.
The people on that train, lost their lives, because there were too many engineers. Two different decisions being made for one train at the same time and the outcome was death. Too many times, our lives can be like this. We desire to make decisions that would honor God and please Him, while at the same time, we aim to please ourselves. The reality is, however, that we cannot continue to live our lives this way and still believe that the outcome will be okay. It is not "okay" to walk with one foot deep in the things of God and the other foot deep in the things of this world. Jesus once said, that no can serve two masters. Matthew 6:24. At some point we will be in a position of loving one and hating the other. Unfortunately, many have chosen hatred toward God.
My prayer is that you will begin to evaluate your own life. Ask God to search your heart and reveal to you the areas of your life that are still "under your control". May you listen to what He reveals and may you respond by letting go, with a willing heart, to allow Jesus to have the final say, even in the small things that seem unimportant. Stop trying to "take the train" the other direction, when the Lord has made it clear which direction you need to be heading.
Remember, I'm praying for you...we're all in this together.